Post by Wolf on Apr 17, 2007 10:30:44 GMT -5
I am depressed by things that are now going on in my life and not sure that i will be posting for a while. I may check in but i will be doing a lot of meditating to keep from an emotional breakdown. One of the only things i fear in life.
Why does life have to be such hell? My grandmother just called. My stepmother called her and told her that i will be recieving a letter today saying that i have to be moved out by the end of june. She can't even tell me to my face, she is going to be giving me a letter or mailing it to me. One or the other. She says that i am nineteen so i am old enough to move out and live on my own. I don't even work 20 hours a week and barely make over minimum wage. She knows this and that is why she called my gram. Her house is the only place that i can move. My gram called because she doesn't think that something like that should be sprung as a surprise.
Honestly though. I think she is jealous of how close i am to my father. That is the only thing i can think of that would have her doing this. He and i have always been very close. I have never been anything but respectful towards her.
She also told my gram that she is going to make a decision regarding our dog. She says that we are either going to have to put her down or cage her at night. Iggy is 17 years old and in the last stages of congestive heart failure. She has never been caged in her life. We don't expect to have her much longer, sure, but she isn't suffering or anything and the only problem is that she has trouble with her bladder. She isn't even the one who cleans up after her, my dad is.
I love my gram but i don't want to have to move in with her. She smokes and back when i lived with her i had pneumonia every winter. I don't want that. My dad is going to have a talk with my stepmom when she gets home.
Sorry to vent in here but i just had to do something to try to calm myself down. I'm overwrought and stressed now unlike anything i have known lately and i know that later i will be depressed. I will probably go to my safe place and meditate a bit later to try to keep myself from a breakdown.
Thanks for listening.
Eb Dr
Why does life have to be such hell? My grandmother just called. My stepmother called her and told her that i will be recieving a letter today saying that i have to be moved out by the end of june. She can't even tell me to my face, she is going to be giving me a letter or mailing it to me. One or the other. She says that i am nineteen so i am old enough to move out and live on my own. I don't even work 20 hours a week and barely make over minimum wage. She knows this and that is why she called my gram. Her house is the only place that i can move. My gram called because she doesn't think that something like that should be sprung as a surprise.
Honestly though. I think she is jealous of how close i am to my father. That is the only thing i can think of that would have her doing this. He and i have always been very close. I have never been anything but respectful towards her.
She also told my gram that she is going to make a decision regarding our dog. She says that we are either going to have to put her down or cage her at night. Iggy is 17 years old and in the last stages of congestive heart failure. She has never been caged in her life. We don't expect to have her much longer, sure, but she isn't suffering or anything and the only problem is that she has trouble with her bladder. She isn't even the one who cleans up after her, my dad is.
I love my gram but i don't want to have to move in with her. She smokes and back when i lived with her i had pneumonia every winter. I don't want that. My dad is going to have a talk with my stepmom when she gets home.
Sorry to vent in here but i just had to do something to try to calm myself down. I'm overwrought and stressed now unlike anything i have known lately and i know that later i will be depressed. I will probably go to my safe place and meditate a bit later to try to keep myself from a breakdown.
Thanks for listening.
Eb Dr