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May 6, 2005 2:50:03 GMT -5
Post by Vorchia on May 6, 2005 2:50:03 GMT -5
I just deleted my account. I simply don't fit in her, AT ALL. I stopped fitting in a really long time ago. My imagination is dead, I'm as unreligious as it gets and my art is near nonexistant. I don't have a use nor am I wanted or needed here or on the OMB whatsoever. When i try to reach out even that doens't work. Honestly I have tried. The past has taught me not to trust but I TRY to. Somehow it fails. I can reach out to burn my hands. Dinotopia changed and is something I associate with people and times that are of the past. I can't seem to put my mind into it anymore. Sure I see the pictures and the art but well my imagination is quite dead and my online friends are gone. I know I would absolutely hate being on the Island because of its lack of technology, no modern medicine, no computers, nada. I'd never fit it. The first dream I ever had about Dinotopia was a nightmare in which I got executed because I didn't fit in, as usual... I don't fit in, never did since the first changes started and I'm not actress enough to pretend I do.
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May 6, 2005 18:26:14 GMT -5
Post by aric on May 6, 2005 18:26:14 GMT -5
A bit hasty, don't you think? I don't see what the fuss is about. I'm not religious and yet I think I fit in just fine. Also, I'm not the most artisically-inclined person around here either. I'm not quite sure what you think being Dinotopian entails. I'm sure spirituality and self-expression are a part of it. However, there's room for logical scientific scholarship. Let me put this to you. What religion told of a universe that's 15 billion years old and 140 TRILLION light years across and expanding as we speak? What priest or shaman ever told of the trillions of stars in billions of galaxies and the rise of life over the eons? What religion concerns itself with the trillions of human beings and other intelligent life who are yet to be born? Granted, it's not the same as what some people here might think Dinotopian spirituality may be, but who cares? The kind of vision that scientists like you present is unparalleled by any religion in human history. It has a power of its own. It's unfair to use religious spirituality as a litmus test for your own feelings and beliefs. Just think about it for a while more before you make any decisions. - Aric
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May 7, 2005 11:07:45 GMT -5
Post by Vorchia on May 7, 2005 11:07:45 GMT -5
Logic is to creativity what ebola is a to humans... Trust me, it doesn't work, not for me on this moment anyway. I can't control the part of my brain that seeks to analyse everything and in the analysis it destroys it. The beauty of it is gone, part dissolved logic, part made ugly by ugly memories and uglier fears... The constant bickering in the RP being just one example, it doesn't inspire me at all nor can I understand or form an image of it simply because the thing is having a dosage of magic right now, not obeying physics and logic which my limited mind (sarcasm anyone?) happens to need to be able to understand anything. In my lack of understanding however I do manage to annoy people severely while I don't want to, I just wanted a fun, comprehendable roleplay. You know, lots of innocent humor in an imaginative place in the 1890's... The lack of mutual understanding really just makes me expect to be betrayed and get hurt anytime soon even if thats just paranoid idea based on past experiences that probably won't repeat themselves. So then my trust is even more limited then usual... Another example is that all week I've been trying to draw but I can't get a line onto the paper. Creativity, art, drawing is something I royally suck at, God or Murphy's law or whatever truly controls this world knows that. I don't have a use here, I'm becoming a nuisance and I don't want to be. I don't WANT to be the annoying attention seeking whiny person you know? I just want to be me... Have my feelings, opnions, likes and dislikes and have them be respected like they are in RL. RL is beautiful right now, finally I can be myself and be understood and really be alive but online ?! I don't like having to act any different then I am but it seems I have to if I wish to avoid a fight... I would stay but not to see a fight.
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May 8, 2005 1:35:30 GMT -5
Post by aric on May 8, 2005 1:35:30 GMT -5
Why don't you create something just for that? Well, I really don't know how to counter that one. It's up to you what actions you want to undertake. I personally don't see any necessary contradiction between logic and passion. I think both serve humans well when given roles and outlets. Perhaps you're just growing and are moving away from these particular sorts of forms of self-expression. Or perhaps it's really the other guy! I personally have lots of urges to slam someone when I think they talk irrationally, but I usually hold my tongue because it might be inappropirate for the OMB. Still, I don't linger on these things. *shrug* - Aric
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